straight from the heart

jkristoff here...

When I was invited to write for this blog, I was hesitant. Being part of it means revealing something about myself, something I am not yet ready to reveal to anyone. But how can I refuse you? You are very special, a part of my past and a part of who I am today.
 

I have always been accused of hiding my true feelings. Perhaps that is true but right now I want to bare it all. To take off all these masks that I wear. To be honest, I am deeply hurt by your choices. It's not that I am blaming you, no. I understand why you did not chose me. How could you choose a man who is hiding even from his own demons? Yet I cannot accept your accusations that everything I said was a lie.
 

Your tears can pierce me harder than any bullet could. It was only sheer willpower on my part why I did not try to console you. It would even be harder for me to leave if I had. You will never understand this. You will never understand that the moment I said goodbye to you was like committing suicide.
 

You want to know the truth? Everything I have now is insignificant because you are not with me.